A little while ago I went to a writing prompt generator and the question that came up asked, “What are you saying goodbye to?” Well obviously I had to answer that one.
Within the year I’m saying goodbye to so many things – the college phase of my life, living at home, my roommate, my family, my hometown. If you know me, then you can imagine what this is doing to my head. I hate change, and I’m scared to death of losing the people I care about – whether to circumstances, just growing up, being hurt, or death, I have lost too many people I love already to just sit back and let it happen again.
Ever the optimist, though – at least most of the time, during the day – I try to think of not only the things I will say goodbye to, but the things I will say hello to. I will learn my way around a new place and gain an independence I’ve never had before. A new school will become my school, new teachers will become my teachers. I will make new friends, some of which I will keep for the rest of my life. Most of all, I hope I will meet the man who will someday (soon, preferably!) become my husband, so I will gain a new family as well.
Although I know the good will outweigh the bad, at least after a while, it doesn’t make me any more anxious for the change to come. It does help, however, to sit back and look at how many more things I will say hello to than the things I will say goodbye to.
